Once the storm is over, you wouldn’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You wouldn’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you wouldn’t be the same person you walked in. That’s what this storm is all about.
For the first time in the longest while, I had a really great night yesterday. Even though I was physically drained, it was still a good day. Firstly, I won 2 pairs of tickets to F1 this weekend! :) First time winning a lucky draw! After the UBS pre-F1 networking event, we headed back to school together because I left my stuff in the library. I really enjoyed the long walk we had to ourselves; I know it sounds stupid…after all, isn’t it just a walk? But it meant so much more to me than you can ever imagine.
Although this semester’s hasn’t exactly been going well since Week 1, I’m trying my best everyday to be optimistic and happy. I’m trying, I really am. Trying my best to ignore and numb the pain, learning to make things not matter so much, believing that I am worth more than this.
& I just want to commit everything into God’s hands and believe that He has a great plan for me in all aspects of my life. I feel bad because I’m not spending enough time with God. By the time I get to bed, I feel so tired and simply say a short prayer that’s almost the same every night. I know He is THE answer to everything and that He alone can help me deal with everything that I’m facing right now. I hope I can remember everyday to look to God instead of focusing on unGodly people and things.
After all my strength is gone, in You I can be strong
So many things at hand - so much readings not done, itinerary not planned, luggage not packed. Really stressed up about everything right now; makes me wonder if we made an impulsive decision to just pack up and leave for the week, despite there being school. Sounds pretty insane isn’t it?
The fact that things aren’t going the way it should be, really isn’t helping things. For the past 2+++ weeks, I’ve tried to keep myself really busy just so that I can get my mind off things. It helps for a bit, but it doesn’t make the pain go away. Tonight, I really can’t help but let the tears fall. but don’t worry, soon I will be okay. Nothing is certain but one thing I can say for sure is that time heals. While the dull pain lingers, I know that I will emerge stronger than before. Chin up, I will be okay.
Really praying that everything goes well and we won’t get lost/kidnapped or anything, and more importantly have fun!
&& strength will find you sooner than you ever think it would
It’s funny how you can be talking to someone, and yet it feels as though you’re on the other side of the world from them. They haven’t actually gone anywhere, but they might as well have. It’s one of the worst feelings to become acquainted with: to miss someone who’s literally right there.
& in your absence, you are everywhere